Wow. I'm so dead. My exams (7 in total!) are in less than three weeks and I have not studied at all.

I repeat: I am so dead.

Now, because I'm so pressured to study, and with the burden of stress, I can't seem to do anything. A pile of books lie on my table and on the floor but I can't decide where to start- or even how to. I'm pressed for time and I don't know what to do first! I'm so scared, I can literally feel my heart racing inside my chest and I can't seem to breathe. I feel so restricted, like I'm stuck inside a cell without any air. Even music is doing half it's usual job- it used to quell my fears and calm me down, but now it's not working. FUCK. What the hell am I supposed to do? I know complaining and whining will not get me anywhere, but geez, I'm only 17. Why is there so much pressure and stress?! I can't wait til Christmas. By then, everything will be over and I can relax. But until then, I will be stressing my butt off. And to what end?